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funeral wishes:[1]
  • no zoom funeral or wake [2]

  • my body shall be turned into soil[3]

  • there shall be more than one eulogy [4]-those who i've asked to speak, please speak

  • eloise will give one of those eulogies

  • my wake/funeral shall not be held at the whitting funeral home

  • there shall be no church involved, st. mary's included

[1] in progress
[2] if i die while it is still unsafe to gather
[4] in hopes that multiplicity will generate a more accurate portrayal of mre
A photo of me from chess club, sporting a navy turtle neck and khaki corduroy pants, my face is blurred. The 'clothing and me' page from a book i made: 'me, myself and i'. there is an illustration of me wearing a rainbow shirt and green zippered pants. There are two questions and answers-- the first: 'Clothes I'd buy if I could: I would buy zippered pants.' the second: 'Clothes I do not like to wear: I do not like to wear dresses.' My 2nd grade picture day photo, I have on a blue fuzzy dress with a black collar. The background features fall foliage. A drawing I did of myself, I am wearing a yankee hat, blue shirt, zippered pants and blue shoes. A photo of me at my brothers 5th grade graduation. I am wearing a blue button up shirt with a red bowtie, and a navy jacket on top. I also have blue pants on. My hair is short. My 3rd grade picture day photo, I am a green plaid button up shirt on and a shell necklace. My hair is short. A photo of me on a 'regular day' I am wearing a red shirt with an orange and blue sweater on top. I have red sweatpants on and blue snowboots. My hair is short. My 5th grade picture day photo, it is in black and white. I am wearing a red plaid shirt. My 8th grade picture day photo sheet. I am wearing a 3/4th sleeve baseball shirt in blue with gray sleeves. My hair is long. A photo of me kneeling on the floor. I am wearing black sweatshirt and jeans. Converse are on my feet. My hair is long. A photo of me wearing plaid pajama pants and a gray zippered sweatshirt. Converse are on my feet. My hair is longer. A watercolor painting of black and white hightop converse. A photo of me from senior prom, I am wearing a long dress(blue). A photo of me in Cuba laying down, wearing a pink and yellow Aloha shirt, light denim shorts. I am holding a green fan. A photo of me in Las Vegas wearing all yellow except my hat (pink) and my socks (red). A screenshot of my 'MY CLOTHES' spreadsheet. A picture of my snowpeak TAKIBI denim pants.

1995-1997:

  • My parents are in full control of my apperance.

1998:

2000:

  • I want a 'crewcut', this leads to big arguments. I don't get the crewcut.
  • The dresscode expands, those wearing pants now have to wear belts.[1]

[1] I am uncomfortable using the school bathroom ('I don't understand why I have to choose one'). Depending on how long I am away from home—I adjust my juice consumption at school. There is one day that I am unaware of a scheduled playdate—my timing is off...I'm at my [new] friends house, I need the restroom. I am struggling to take off my belt. I don't make it in time, I pee all over the floor & my pants... There is a drain in the bathroom—using a towel—I push the liquid into the drain then dump the towel into their hamper. After at least 15 minutes, I come out of the bathroom speechless. They call my parents, I go home, I never go back

2002:


[2] Luckily it is a rainy day-I keep my yellow rain jacket on. When it's time to take the picture I am asked to take off the jacket, I cry. Somehow the photographer gets me to smile.
[3] My mom did not 'cut her hair', as I understood it, she shaved her head to start chemotherapy.

2003-2004:

  • I have a say in what I wear for picture day.[4]
  • On a regular day I dress myself, mostly in sweatpants and my brothers hand-me-downs.
  • I wonder if maybe I should tone down my "tomboy-ness". [5]

[4] I think shell necklaces are sick...I ask my parents to take me to a tropical island, they never agree.
[5] The school security guard chases me out of the girls bathroom then yells at me in front of a number of students for being in the 'wrong bathroom'.

2005:

  • Plaid button ups are still my go to for picture day.
  • My detest for shopping grows. [6]

[6] Christmas is at my grandmas Italian-American social club...I always cry before we go, as there is an argument about what I will wear. She takes me to Lord & Taylor to buy me an outfit that is not a suit. I hate everything she points out. It's getting way too hot and I need to get out of the store, so, I agree to the pair of raw silk purple pants she has been pushing on me.

2006:

  • I decide to grow my hair out and not actively seek out "boys" clothes, however I continue to wear my brothers hand-me-down tshirts and jeans as my primary outfits.[7]

[7] On the first day of middle school as I am walking into the locker room, someone from a different elementary school yells to me "wrong locker room!!" & high fives his friend.

2009-2010:

  • My outfits consists of sweatshirts[8] and the same hand-me-down jeans.
  • Every day for a month and a half, I wear a brown ear flap knit hat.[9]
  • I grow out my bangs.[10]

[8] Specifically, hoodies from Bar, Bat & B'nai Mitzvahs.
[9] This is absolutely not a syle choice–my cousin gives me lice so I need to keep it under control. Nobody knows except my family.
[10] I complain it's hard to play sports with bangs, my teammate tells me to 'grow them out'...I realize I don't have to have bangs...

2011-2012:

  • Still wearing hoodies[11], but I swap the jeans for plaid pajama pants.[12]
  • I own one pair of shoes: converse B&W high tops.
  • I wear dresses to jprom, prom, and graduation, but I don't pick them out, my friend figures it out the day before or morning of.[13]
  • I have no idea how long my hair is, I look in the mirror and see it like this.

[11] A number of sweet sixteen birthday parties expand my sweatshirt collection.
[12] I take evening showers, this way the next morning I roll out of bed in my pajamas that double as pants.
[13] Everyone is always shocked, they say they 'forgot I had a body' under my sweatshirts...I also forgot.

2013:

  • I cut my hair for the first time in five years, it is now up to my shoulders.
  • For the second half of the year I wear a yellow cap backwards almost everyday, there is an embroidered patch that says "the meat house" on it.

2014-2015:

  • I wear uniqlo skinny jeans every day with the cuffs rolled.
  • I am being pushed to dress a certain way.
  • I want yellow pants[14] , but I'm met with judgement.

[14] Inspired by my great uncle who only packed only one pair of yellow pants for a trip to Sicily.

2016:

  • Summer: questionably, I exclusively wear Aloha shirts.
  • I go thrifting and get lots of colorful clothing.
  • I cut my hair for the first time in three years, now it is just above my shoulders.

2017-2018:

  • I say goodbye to many sweatshirts and t-shirts from highschool.
  • No more skinny jeans.[15]
  • On a trip to vegas I (attempt to) strictly wear yellow.
  • I make myself a belt! [16]

[15] I realize that everytime I wear the uniqlo skinny jeans from 2014-2015 my anxiety goes up... I dump all of my remotely skinny pants.
[16] I go to the garment district to find a buckle that is extremely easy to use.

2019:

  • I wear the same pair of pants to work for over a year.
  • I touch all of my clothing, actively deciding what to keep & I catalog them into spreadsheet
  • I find the first pair of pants I am comfortable in as a sentient being.
  • Getting dressed isn't horrible.

2020:

  • I revert back to pajamas almost everyday...
  • I get bangs again.
  • I cut my hair shorter than its been since elementary school.

2021:

  • My mind wanders back to the 'crewcut' I begged for 21 years ago...
the back of my phone, i hope that my fbi agent enjoyed being in a scanner...
a pink baseball cap, with a custom embroidered patch in the center. the patch pictures the 'Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas' sign with '2018' written in it, it has a border which reads 'SPRING BREAK NEVER ENDS'...this is 1 of 4 caps, made by yours truly for a spring break trip to Las Vegas
a drawing of myself (short hair, orange shirt, blue pants) in a field of flowers to the left of me there is a bench and a tree... there is text underneath which reads 'I will help make the world a better place by throwing seeds all around. Emary' from 2003
drawing done on may 11th 2020 at 16:53 EST, at the moment i was thinking of graphs, dandelions & their roots, points as rocks and spirals
a Korean 'italy towel' made from a type of rayon called viscose which used to be imported to korea from italy...i am greatful for Korean sauna, 찜질방, culture-introduced to me in 2017-this cloth gets me through the winters as i spend hours in the tub scrubbing
a black and white film photo from early 2020, i face my late aunt rosemary's mirror, holding a film camera that was gifted to my father from my grandmother for his graduation in the '80s. the camera covers most of my face, only one eye is fully visible. my hair is back. my white button up coat resembles a lab coat. i have a black long sleeve shirt under. i am in the bathroom of my basement apartment, i am the nanny to the owners of the house. it was formerly F.Scott Fitzgeralds home, while living there (1933-34) his friend wrote in his journal: “The case of F. Scott Fitzgerald has become distressing. He is a boozing in a wild manner and has become a nuisance.”
a cut out paper sneaker with the nike check upside down, the paper is colored rainbow-ish with colored pencil. 'Emary' is written on the toe of the shoe. the paper sneaker sits on top of piece of paper cut out to be the cuff of a pant a foot-in-sock. the words 'My New Years Resolution' are visible
the cut out paper resembling a pant leg and foot-in-sock, mentioned above. there are line in the sock. written on them is 'My New Years Resolution for 2003 is to make new friends at the Glen Head School. I need more friends at the Glen Head School. I will do this by saying my name and playing with them.' 'Emary Parisi'. my 2003 new years resolution was a success.
a loose leaf paper, handwritten on it is 'Emary is five years old her favorite color is green and blue. Her favorite movie is Rugrats the movie. Her favorite sport is soccer. Emary hates to write. Her favorite book is 'The Empty Pot'. Her favorite food is corn. Emary likes to play with toys and loves to have soda and candy. She is nice to people. She is a very nice sister. But not when she burps' under the text is an illustration of emary burping. This review is from March 3rd, 2001 by Charlie.
earliest found drawing of 'spongebob', 2001, spongebob appears to floating while holding a balloon- perhaps in reference to season 2 episode 27b 'Life of Crime' drawing of spongebob holding what appears to be a microphone, 2002,- perhaps in reference to the performance of 'Sweet Victory' in season 2 episode 15b 'Band Geeks' a drawing of patrick, plankton, spongebob and mr.krabs with money in his hands emerging from behind spongebob, 2002 a drawing of spongebob. the intent of this drawing was to learn how to properly draw spongebob, 2011 a grey sock, on it pictures barbed wire framing half of spongebobs face, under reads 'spongebob was here!', purchased at Vu Skate Shop in 2021
a center aligned handwritten poem on loose leaf, it starts with a header: 'Emary', line break ' If you sometimes feel Lonely, sad or blue, I know a way to help. I know what to do. We can sit and talk, or maybe run and play. I can make you smile, becuase I care this way.'
Journay entry written on dotted graph paper. the heading: 'Saturday, January 23rd, 2021. 16:27' line break 'Stop.......watch the clouds by,,, enter & exit the window. Breathe with them. When I slow down my breath, the clouds go faster- we begin to shift together...'
An image of a Kumon Math Workbook, Multipication, Grade 3: practice of the sevens times tables, completed on March 18th, 2020, score: 100/100

unstructured free time

First assignment in art school: a nonrespresentational self portrait. The drawing is of a bottle with holds dirt, it is done in charcoal.
Three linocut blocks ontop of one another. My finger tip got caught and ripped off in the printing predd from this print. A collaboration between Amani Lewis, Alec Cerminaro, and I.
The cover of a hallmark greeting card that says 'Thinking Of You', there are illustrations of butterflys surrounding the text.
The inside of the greeting card. On the right side has printed text 'Thinking of you And wanting you to know How much happiness you are wished on this day- and always!' On the left side a handwritten note: 'March 17th, 2013. Dear Emary, I've enclosed an interesting piece from the CEO of 'Levenger' an office supply store. You might also consider reading 'Silent Spring'. Increased reading may help you decide your future path in life. Love, Grandma
The first of five pages from the piece written by the CEO of Levenger. Highlighted are the words 'Give capitalism a chance.'
The first page of a draft for a creative story written on March 10th, 2011, for English class. Handwritten in purple is a note from the teacher: 'Emary- Please see me.. this is unacceptable- you must take assignment seriously if you wish to get credit for it.' This teacher told my mother I had no filter and that she had never taught a more disrespectful student in her life. She accused me of keying her car, an false accusation.
An 'Award of Merit', the 'Life-Learners Award'. A quote underneath reads 'Life is my college. May I graduate well, and earn some honors! -Louisa May Alcott' present to me in the sixth grade. There is an illustration of a the golden gate bridge vertically centered.
On loose leaf paper in the handwritting of a 6 year old the alphabet is laid out, the first four lines are UPPERCASE, there is horizontal line break, the next two lines are the alphabet in lowercase. Both alphabets end with 'y and z' with the and written out. The bottom of the paper says 'By Emary'.
An uneven hexagon cut from yellow-ish construction paper, glued ontop is sheet of printer paper which has been cut out in a cloud shape using zig zag scissors. The poem is center aligned, making use of Comic Sans. It is titled 'The Pencil', it reads'Six flat smooth sides. Yellow like the bright sun. Writing and erasing. Guides you over the paper. A soft ssssss as it moves along.' There is an clip art illustration of a pencil mounted to the right of the poem. Made in 2004 or 2005.
a graphite drawing on loose leaf paper, 2002. A pencil looks at themselves in the mirror.
Our Lady of Grace Montessori School third trimester report card from 2001/02, page one. Of the 26 boxes within the three categories: Physical Development, Social/Emotional Development, and Work Habits- 9 of them are marked as an 'area of strength', while 17 are marked as 'age appropriate'.
Our Lady of Grace Montessori School third trimester report card from 2001/02, page two. Of the 22 boxes within the three categories: Receptive Skills, Expressive Skills, and Language- 2 of them are marked as an 'area of strength', 15 are marked as 'age appropriate', 4 are marked as 'progressing towards age appropriate', while 1 is marked as'N/A'. In the Math category, there are 11 boxes, 3 are marked as 'concrete level', 6 are marked as 'progressing towards abstraction', while 3 are marked as 'N/A'. In the culture category, there are 5 boxes, 1 (religion) is marked as 'high interest and aptitude', while 4 are marked as 'age appropriate'
Our Lady of Grace Montessori School third trimester report card from 2001/02, page three. The comments page: it reads 'Emary has shown good growth in all academic areas. In math, she is developing a clearer understanding of place value. In reading, she is becoming more confident applying a variety of reading strategies to text. Her journal stories are always filled with interesting details. Emary is well liked by her peers due to her warm personality and her willingnes to lend a helping hand. Continue to read as much as possible over the summer to retain the gains that she has made.'
A handwritten note: '2/6/02 Dear Charlie, I liked your letter I ripped it up because I was mad. Love Emary.'
On loose leaf paper, handwritten: 'AAEE1E3211AE3221E33221AAE11E32211E' below are two graphite drawings of violins, on has a bow one does not. An attempt at remembering the notes to 'twinkle twinkle little star' on the violin.
A sonogram image, labeled Vivian Parisi, from the 26th of may in 1995.
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pre birth
toddler
glen head
montessori school
second grade
sea cliff school
youth
middle school
highschool
teens
year off
baltimore
fresh/soph mica
left-handed period
jun/sen mica
within an institution
post grad
pandemic
the good ol' days
scorpio season
fall
winter
spring
summer
not in america
currently
2029
on my deathbed
post death

TIME

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clothing/outfit
from someone else
assignment
'very bad thing'
image
drawing
ritual
portrait
anecdote
handwritten
response
character
game
sound
credential
diagram
tool
performance
thought
observation
experience
object
food
goal
online
physical
review
value
practice

FORM

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tender
dark
pensive
potent
curious
grateful
suspicious
bitter
recalcitrant
mundane
significant
precarious
divisive
expressive
funny
mysterious
scrumptious
critical
cryptic
foundational
genuine
comforting
shy
lively
desperate
flamboyant
angst
problematic
sensitive

FEELING